IT'S ME....MY LIFE AND I'M HONEST..

2012-01-23T00:20:00.003+08:00

Closed deal on Public Holiday!Alhamdulillah!Awesome!

2012-01-20T23:11:00.001+08:00

I have faith in things i do.InsyaALLAH.

2012-01-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

m feeling so vulnerable now.Keep telling myself i wont let anything to pull me down.m on my own destiny.As time past by,m stronger,stronger than ever.This is just a beginning.
Seriously i don't know how to react when i read those status of yours,now i wonder if there's anything happened behind my back that u're not telling.Tired of guessing when all the questions seems to no answer at all.
M much more a realistic person.I just want a simple life.

2012-01-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

Lyrics | Cheryl Cole lyrics - Parachute lyrics

2012

2012-01-01T17:37:00.001+08:00

The Year of Achievement!

2011-12-31T16:45:00.004+08:00

The Gang Annual Gathering,Exchange gift,May our friendship last 4ever.
Mizi
Eus
Jemir
Shan
Roy
Ct
Ina
Eliza
Emma
Amie
Torenk
Azie
Julie
Zyrol

2011-12-26T14:18:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday, the journey has just begun! bring it ON!

2011-12-11T15:44:00.002+08:00

Need new organizer for 2012.
argh...so much to tell.
grandpa in kajang is sick.m worried.I must visit him soon.

2011-12-08T00:34:00.002+08:00

While you were sleeping.
I stared at you
watching you as you hug me closed
while i was facebook-ing.
Thank you for making me much more a human.

2011-11-29T22:33:00.003+08:00

m thinking about YOU,the whole entire day,but i dunno why was it so hard for me to tell or o even express.I seriously hate this feeling. I feel like i wanna run to you,but i got my leg chained.
sigh.
let's talk about something else.
I bought Anuar Zain latest album,his songs never disappoint me so far.
Dinner with derrick,nat,heyroun and martin.Nothing much,been discussing about the pass to TIESTO this coming 10th Dec at Sepang International Circuit.To be honest, i dont feel good to go.but we'll see.
till then...
nite

2011-11-27T12:42:00.002+08:00

For the 1st time,perhaps after long time,m feeling much more stronger to tell myself,no matter mater how much my love for u are, i can still live my live without you.I am no longer afraid of being alone,well a lil bit of afraid to ge getting hurt,but i guess,life is the more u get hurt,the stronger and wiser u become.
alrite.
couple of project still pending,patience.
me and bff,perhaps is geting better.
full time work is ok.nothing much.
watched twilight yesterday.thanks so much for the company. :)
I need vacation.The island is the whereabouts.next year.perhaps.
dec is just around the corner...
xmas date meant to something else.perhaps it's a good thing.nevertheless,i shall wait.another patience.
despite of everything, Thank you so much for YOUR time.I appreciated it so much.Massive Thank you.

WISHLIST

2011-11-23T01:19:00.001+08:00

ps, i yet to figure out the suprise on the 25 dec.

WISH LIST

2011-11-18T16:40:00.002+08:00

so fuckin' beautiful ay!
ps, i rewards myself with my new aviator.got a good deal.suits mey.

2011-11-17T23:47:00.003+08:00

This feeling is seriously fucking annoying.
Yeah..i admitted I was so pissed at u but that's bcos u couldn't care less to explained.So served u right with my bloody sharp tongue.
Sigh.
I have too much pride at times.Too much of I AM NEVER WRONG.
I should have patiently wait (this part is definitely impossible!m so done of waiting).I should have talk to you nicely.I shouldn't bbm u that way.
Fuck the world la...
FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.FUCK.

can we rejoice?

2011-11-09T10:43:00.001+08:00

Pathetic Coward or even worst than cranky faggot - Provocations via BBM,What's Apps n name what's not.Have balls to say right to my face!

2011-11-06T18:54:00.002+08:00

Eidul Adha. Defines The Sacrifice.
Fought again with BFF. I just don't know what to do,to asked to rejoice is certainly not my thang,I have pride and i definately not gonna go against my principle.That's it.sigh.
I've no mood to rant.Initially i feel there's a lot to rant about,but not when i came across to this feeling.It sucks! seriously i sucks big time!

2011-11-01T16:16:00.002+08:00

I am quite flattered to know that SpellbounLady still has fans out there,constantly reading her crap stories,I even loughing my self out loud to know that there are some of my ex's still reading mine,well dearest ex-lovers,reading my blog doesn't make u a stalker ok.
I have been sicked for the past of this few days on my annual leaves!for god sake it has to happened on these dates.anyways despite of being sick, i was bz running stuffs here and there,YES I AM THAT BZ, that i really have no time to swing around.

i gotta go! someone is on her way to pick me up for tea perhaps. catch y'all someother times.

xoxo

2011-10-02T23:24:00.002+08:00

Such a disappointment for this past few hectic days.All from those who's very dear to me. I shall not describe in detail of the painful moment,I'll keep them within my chest. Why must we hurt the person who love us the most? and why would we still alllow this people to hurt us constantly? For the 1000x i asked myself,WHAT HAVE I DONE TO DESERVE ALL THIS? n yet till now, I've no answer to this pathetic question.
I still remember someone used to tell me this "too much of everything wont do us any good" .
I hate it so much every time when u simply crossed my line, being closed to me doesn't mean u have every access in my lil tiny heart. U still out of respect,need to asked permission,otherwise i shall categorized u as being RUDE.I care about you and love you too bit doesn't mean you can simply tell me what to do,that is consider RUDE as well, when i am so many times reminded you, i have my flaws, so please know your border line.
U just gotta learn what to say and do at the right time,as m not someone at your age. It's not m not open to feedback, but pls, dont talk to me as if i am a kid.Don't insult me.Pls.
When i care too much,people took me for granted,when i don't i got a slammed of being such a cold hearted person.Seriously, m getting sick n tired of it already.

ps, u said u need me, u shouldn't ignore me.It's more like i should start doing, now m telling u , i'll be there when i think u need me,not when u want me.

KL WORD : The GURLZ Club.

2011-09-17T21:52:00.002+08:00

The B List.

arTHURSDAY- 15/9/2011 @ Delaney's, Federal Hotel KL

2011-09-17T21:46:00.005+08:00

we had fun!indeed!

2011-09-04T12:43:00.002+08:00

This song keep spinning in my head. "Love you like love song" over and over again.

It takes courage to be alone.

Over the last few months, I’ve arrived at a place where I’m extremely comfortable being alone. The journey wasn’t easy, but just because I’m alone doesn’t mean I’m lonely. I’m spending more time now friends and family getting to know them better as all this while i have been successfully neglecting them.my bad.i hope time suffice for them perhaps this time around.

Minal Aidil Wal Faizin

2011-08-29T00:49:00.002+08:00

2011-08-27T01:20:00.002+08:00

signed.sealed.delivered.
Today is such a long day,but i enjoyed every bits of it.Really i am.
working out on 22k sets of stationery,from the pen,pencil,eraser and the boxes.M thru!
it's only waiting for the delivery.Insya-Allah,may everything goes smoothly.
Banners are already delivered.Alhamdullilah.
This is the GREATEST GIFT from ALLAH.Syukran!
Insya-Allah..more to come.

I gotta do some profit&loss account. Imagine to have 2 things in hand.my office works n my part time business,soon i pray to be my full time.Insya-Allah.

Eid's is just around the corner,I feel like Ramadhan passed by so fast.I could never get enuff of Ramadhan.
"I seek for the forgiveness for any of my misbehaved.may this Syawal brings us happiness and victory"

ps, after 2 years..it's only now i have strength to drive u around debab.u've been super fantastic.

2011-08-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

12th August 2011
I must be thankful to mama to bring me to this world.
to taste the sweetness and bitterness that makes me of who i am today.
THANK U MA!
some said,why must good thing must come to the end,but i said..good things end for the better state.
I am now so much peaceful,thanked to Allah the gracious.
Things do happened for reason.
Happy Birthday to me!
m a year better..
Alhamdullilah.

2011-08-11T22:17:00.000+08:00

I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but
Someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend
That you've forgiven me

'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such a relief from winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold if you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda
Don't stop keep that chin up you'll be alright
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?

'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

'Cause I don't know you anymore
I don't recognise this place
The picture frames have changed
And so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't give to see your face again

I see your face
I see your face

2011-07-31T21:13:00.002+08:00

2011-07-27T21:12:00.001+08:00

I guess it's already a goodbye.
nothing much to say.
I wish u well.
Thank u for loving me.

2011-07-18T21:06:00.005+08:00

The damage cause me by Mr Dengue.It was the worst experience but i thanked Allah for the second chance.Not many can have this. During the admission, i think a lot,thought a lot about lots of things.

I am much more calmer.
To wait for U all this while, thought me of something...patience.I learn thru the hard way.
No point of me holding all this,i can no longer see your face,i cant stand myself to pretend.I just cant.
Why would i want to give a shit about u,when u all this while keep dwelling the same old time.
I dont know when will be the goodbye's..i hope soon.very soon.
I hope all this happened will ease you to face whatever u plan for ur future.

I love my new job,new role.
I can sense my boss has the high expectation on me.
I'll take the challenge.

I've nothing much to rant. till then..the picture i like the most. I wish u happiness.

2011-07-06T23:02:00.003+08:00

Decided to just stay in KL rather JKT,i missed home,i miss her but as always it didn't turned out just like i want.How very unfortunate of me to find that she is cheating on me,I guess it's the same old damn story line,just as exactly,as precise,as fucking damn same like what she did to her x-girlfriend,should i mentioned any names?last time i checked was ZAREE,so! i could figure out this happened when i'm still in the fuckin relationship with her,while at the same time she is fuckin with someone else!tho it was only pathetic horny smses,but u betrayed,that's the whole point. and u still want me to be around pathetically to be ur friend for benefit?
That one fine day will come.
"i know what u did..n just u are just exactly the same..just like them..the ungrateful ones".
m tired to deal with this shitty things again.
Nur,
m cool if u think that u n me can never work out,but i hate it the most when u lie to me u even cheat on me?
m not sad anymore,that phase had passed.neither i am angry.The utmost feeling..is i feel so disturb.
I wanna be ok.again.
This too shall past.soon.

2011-06-30T19:34:00.002+08:00

I love you. You're my only reason to stay alive... if that's what I am. ~ Edward Cullen

This was taken from bl's blog (u know who u are) , I cant help but to miss all those time,,,with boo..yes boo..especially u! i love u no matter what, and it is still..never fade away. It's been ages boo..it's either we hold the anger that we thought will cool off just in a blink of an eye..or we must've have been bz that we forget...we used to looked on each other..

miss u boo.

call me if u read this.

2011-06-30T17:39:00.002+08:00

Hi back!
It's been such a long time, didn't managed to rant up. too bz with someone else's life,which apparently didn't do much for me.
m not saying that i regret.no i don't, i've always been telling my self, the more u give the more u get,but i didn't happen to me,again,i learnt new things in life,it's not so new,it's only this time i have strength to acted to "less expectation". How Possible it is gonna be? time will tell.
This less expectation somehow rather reminds me of one who's who,and old guy looking for some great sex but turnout such a failure on the bed, that i met recently, thought of closing some business deals,apparently i have a second thought on that,so yup..i didn't close the deal,it's just not worth it, perhaps i cant stand to deal with some cranky old man trying his very best with his 4inch lil fella whom he thinks can please me.hell no.

i have so many stories,to tell, i know u've been so loyal following me here n there. i shall keep u update.

sign off
spellboundlady.

2011-05-02T14:30:00.000+08:00

this is my sacrifice to better future.Insya-Allah.

2011-04-27T13:52:00.000+08:00

Tetapi aku tidak pernah berdusta. Dan itulah ini kekal sehingga kini.

2011-03-25T11:46:00.002+08:00

From jakarta, i heard a choas in Kuala Lumpur. Nevermind, May Allah forgive u (9.43)
Anyways,it's been while i did not update anything in here,i have been very bz,unlike some other people who fond to live on other expanses. That is worst than being a whore.
I have so much to update...
till u hear from me again.

2011-03-21T19:34:00.001+08:00

kerana susu pulut binasa
turut hati,hidup merana

2011-02-03T18:44:00.003+08:00

time to switch to e-ciggy, at least i am promoting safe environment and good health, the rest?

2011-01-29T19:11:00.003+08:00

Here is to rant out,to where to bitch out? spellboundlady does twitting these days! find me,leave ur mark there! cant wait for bandoeng trip, haha! it reminds me of so many things,it's my PAID trip i hope no one will ever ruin trip.

2011-01-26T19:22:00.002+08:00

Indah di mata... indah dijiwa yang berahi
Bagaikan direnda... terpesona penuh asyik
Dan kubelai... sisir angin yang berbisik
Bukan rahsia... kau kekasih ku...

Pecahan ombak...yang menyentuh pipi ini
Pedih rasa hati... bagai ditusuk panah duri
Dan kusapu... kerna kabur pandanganku
Dalam langkah... tarian cintamu

Duhai malam... tiada bintang...
Menghiasi... taman kasih ini...
Hanya aku... sendirian...
Tak berteman... keseorangan...

Kekasih ku... hanya aku...
Yang memuja... sisa cinta ini...
Seandainya... ombak laut...
Surut lagi... aku pergi... oh...

Kekasih ku... oh...

Seiring camar pulang... setia pada janji
Itu doa ku... selama ini...

Dari mata... dari jiwa yang berahi
Makin kumengerti... istilah percintaan ini
Moga nanti... ada seru menyatakan
Kau kekasih... hingga ke akhirnya...
Kau kekasih... hingga ke akhirnya...
Oh... kekasih

ps, every time when i think of u,then this song started to play itself,in my mind..in my heart.UiTM Jengka 99-02

2011-01-20T17:12:00.000+08:00

amazingly beautiful!

2011-01-19T00:06:00.002+08:00

Our wise Dr M has said "Melayu mudah lupa" i think he somehow think he reminded himself too. So my question now,what about the chinese?the indian?the ibans?the kadazan? are they not forgetful too? we evolved and we revolved, i think this quote is no more longer making any sense.Sorry Doc. but yeah..he is still the most outstanding PM that Malaysian could ever had.salute!

2011-01-14T18:05:00.002+08:00

age is the obvious sign that some people won't change. don't u agree? the older u are the calmer and wiser u become.

2011-01-14T15:41:00.001+08:00

quote of the day

"LIFE IS TO AWESOME TO WASTE YOUR TIME THINKING ABOUT SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T TREAT YOU RIGHT"

2011-01-14T12:41:00.002+08:00

baby..soon u will be mine!

2011-01-13T16:54:00.002+08:00

The weather is not as good as the people,moody. How does weather relates to human behaviour?.I shall remain calm.

I still remember, i set the different,i choose my friends,i choose whom i want to be with,altho at time,i made wrong decision,as a reminder as well, i dont need anyone to judge or even tell me how should i live my life for as far as m concern,if u love/being a friend with someone,u should accept the person of who she/he is.right? we are all human,and for god sake stop trying to be so fucking angle when your are fucking not.I hate those fakers.Seriously.

Why arent u sleeping? are u sick? or u just being sick surrounded by the sick people? tell me about it, i can see where your're coming from.It's been so long we didnt catch up..it's either u or me have no time for each other, or? i wish u well dear.

m bz now,doing some marketing stuff,gonna launch soon, pls support.

2011-01-10T23:27:00.004+08:00

something about him that always struck me right thru my heart. his calm eyes.AKIL AMIN THE APPLE OF MY EYES.

2011-01-10T19:51:00.005+08:00

how time flies so fast these days.
well,sitting here at my 2nd office,i must say now is my 2nd home after taman cempaka. wondering what can future offers me? naa..i don't wanna be like someone who likes to be in red ocean,i have talent thus i belong to blue ocean.If u know business than u know what m talking about.
few things to to settle which i know will take times and patience. Just be patience.
nothing much that i wanna bitch here except that this 2011 is quite a different feeling to have. hmmm..i don't know whether it's good or bad.well bring it on.
Lots of resignation happened.it is indeed quite a stressful moment for me,as those left are very dear/closed to me. office is full with bunch of loser,seriously some of them deserve a FUCK U on their fucking face, u seriously messed with the wrong person.Perbuatan Biadap!
I hope u literally read my message, I HAVE TALENT AND IT COMES WITH A PRICE, as much as i love to be generous,but not u my dear. since u refused to recognized my talent, i therefore refused to accommodate with any of ur need.m serious.but of course,since people out there recognized me and only wanna talk to me. U'll face the consequences once i decide that IT 'S MY WAY OR HIGH WAY.I cannot tolerate with incompetence and inconsistency, oh yeah..u think u can buy me with ur lousy fruit cake? sorry..not even PRADA can compared with my luxury taste,U ARE INDEED SUCH A FAILURE.Pls do not insult me with ur cheap trick.
Watched AJL last nite,no offense to the winner ANA RAFALI,altho she's out pitch or there's something wrong with tongue,that she couldn't be able to pronounced the simple malay such 'JANGAN' seriously, even sharifah amani did a better job when she claimed 'i sound silly if i speak in malay' and of course to the judges, i feel like plucking your finger nails for the shameful you've done.
I'll be back for more posting,I definitely will.to my dear fans -- enjoy ur reading.

2010-12-30T13:16:00.002+08:00

It's gonna be end of 2010.It's a mixed feeling,part of them precisely like last year. cry me a river. I must do myself a favor. to end all the misery. if silence is the best, I shall consider.

I've no resolution for 2011, i'll go with the flow, perhaps no one or nothing in 2011 to ruin my life. I need a break. To earn back what i have lost. I will not turn back to cold-hearted soul. I've changed,i've toned down,a lot. tho it seems they are soul who took it for granted,m not a clown either.

someone asked, "is spellbound dead?"

i guess she is dying, she cant seem to find the cure for herself.

2010-12-28T00:56:00.000+08:00

it's been a year already...

2010-12-24T16:27:00.000+08:00

Rebak Marina,m coming!

2010-12-14T13:10:00.000+08:00

tu me manques

she sings my heart out.

2010-12-13T14:56:00.002+08:00

Satu persatu telah ku hapus
Cerita lalu di antara engkau dan aku
Dua hati pernah berjaya
Seribu mimpi tanpa ragu tanpa curiga
Ku tak ingin lagi menunggu menanti
Harapan 'tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati
Ku tak ingin coba hanya 'tuk kecewa
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara
Aku ingin pergi dan berganti hati
Satu persatu telah ku hapus
Nada dan lagu yang dulu ku cipta untukmu
Rasa yang dulu pernah ada
Kini berdepuk terbelenggun dusta dan noda
Ku tak ingin lagi menunggu menanti
Harapan 'tuk hidupkan cinta yang telah mati
Ku tak ingin coba ku telah kecewa
Lelah ku bersenyum lelah ku bersandiwara
Kini ku sadari diri ini ingin berganti hati
Cinta yang 'tlah pergi harus berganti hati

2010-12-13T13:52:00.002+08:00

Had fever for the past 3 days ain't a good thing to go thru,no choice but an mc.I guess with no rest and constant pressures, i need a break,need to be away,to clear my mind.
2010 is gonna end,i hope soon,this year had me witness of so many things,betrayal,heart broken,back stabbing,losing, and everything u can call to the part when it's tearing your heart.Been there done that.
I'm glad, it soon started, m proud cos to see all the effort is becoming a reality now, I hope when it kicks off,IT will be ur lifetime birthday.Insya-Allah.
I on the other hand..needs to start something new,fresh perhaps.Insya-Allah. I had been dreaming those people,that i longed to see..
rcvd this from someone
"xxx is just a clown,retiring soon from that job,tiring,very tiring,yeah don't worry still luv you and the rest,the love of my life is keeping me sane,so dun worry,i see you're doing fine,going out and mixing around,good food,that's a good remedy for you,dont be worried,you'll find someone special,someday"
I can take criticism,but comparison? Spellboundlady? nothing's compare.

2010-12-11T00:27:00.002+08:00

Someone birthday is just around the corner. I know u have been monitoring my progression,from FB perhaps! yeah i dream of u last nite,we took a ride with sweety,just like last time,I missed the old time,guess m still missing those momento.I know, we all move forward, so do I.
Next year is going to be 12 month salary,no more annual bonus,cos they included 'em in the monthly salary,so yeah..there goes my taxes which i fucking hate it! but guess what? I am entitled to 18 of medical leave annually,which a pro rate of 2 mc's in a month! superb!people,pls don't get me wrong, I'm trying to see from the management view that is UTILIZATION.If u know what i mean. I was just joking. When lots of good people are leaving,something is just not right has been happening. This is the time of the hungry man, i see,i heard how the play the game, it seems this time i wanna throw my cards but am afraid of my own luck, guess i was never into risk,just go with the flow? I need some serious action.
nothing much to bitch here. Have a nice weekend.

2010-12-09T12:29:00.001+08:00

I am currently reading,intensely reading..the act of DEFAMATION. How could i relate this?

2010-11-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

The price of this trade called sincere.Priceless.
My mentor in Jakarta called me. soon i will be there. Perhaps to release some steam off and to tune back my cracked head Trying to be positive in so many ways,where the bullet can't seem to recognized no one no more. I am stronger,will always be one.
Met Kevin Rodrigues, feel lots better, reminds me of the old timer centurion. we bitch about card members,but yeah it was fun,he'll be leaving to Monaco and i don't know when can i see him again. My dear old man, i shall take ur word this time. "the older u get,the bitter u become"
I have to go for dispute training soon, which i know soon i will have to handle escalation, the job in singapore is waiting for my reply,too bad they just refuse to understand my need,let's wait. I cant be living in that island with little salary where life is affluently demanding! right. I'll just wait and see. how it goes.

I hope u feel better. I will always be around. :)

Last xmas i gave u m heart but the very next day u give it away...

2010-11-25T10:27:00.001+08:00

November Rain. It rain again.

2010-11-17T19:01:00.002+08:00

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT AIDILADHA.

Tired but fun indeed. but this new process is going to be the whole new journey,insya-Allah.

This morning rcvd phone calls from BFF, hmmmm...u know i love u to bits..

Well,anyways...I've nothing more to jot down here..

Today is the absolute defination of TIRED.

Oh yeah...cant wait for Mr Kevin Rodrigues to come back Moscow, it's been long we didn't meet up and bitch up!

I'm glad that my FANS still reading my blog,some i know are unwanted but of course u're welcome and u know where ur seat at :) but anyways RUBBISH WILL ALWAYS BE RUBBISH.

I still have 6.5 day of annual leave..argh..pls approve...pls approve...

till then happy stalking,i know m interesting.smirk.

2010-11-13T06:27:00.002+08:00

I was thinking of something...apart from it's gonna be end of 2010, hmm i was thinking to do something seriously, sort of like hobby, back then i used the collect comic (my era of GILA-GILA) , GG was an epic back then, they have their own followers, like each kartoon series like 3 Dara Pingitan, Ujang etc had published they own copies, don't ask me about today's local comics which is so not my cup of tea,disgusting. hmmm..shall i make a start for new collection?

2010-11-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

I have a very forgiving soul. I don't live my life in vengance,revenge or anything as such, let the world be cruel,but I shall not.

Whatever things that happened i will stand still,nothing can defeat me but Allah. Cos when i decide to do something, is to do with faith,passion and love of the work ur doing, m not the type whom give up easily, To be prepared for the pros n cons,so if u think by doing all this to test the level of my patience, u got the wrong person. Even when i love someone, i will love them heartly. To be there ups n down is undisputely!

I hope u know me by now.

M under an apprentice program, tuff will make it thru, succesful,Insya-Allah. As the preparation to enter another dirty world.

To walk the talk.

I need to find the real defination of BLUR :)

The baby, still under progress,soon...very soon insya-Allah. I will make u proud of me. T I W W O F U L (guess what it is stand for) .

some always say...i will be there when u dont need me..when u want me..u'll find me no longer there...I want to appreciate what i have now, for as long m alive and i will not let any injury be that little dispute.

Have A Nice Weekend.

2010-11-11T06:52:00.002+08:00

It suddenly hits me in the head "when u know where you stand..."

2010-11-11T01:24:00.003+08:00

M searching for new bag,tote perhaps,big fan of course,hand bag will just make me look like makcik-makcik,sorry..no way near that.degrading! found this new website,like omg..i can just cum by myself by just looking at those tote from PRADA and Balenciaga, so eff-yu-si-kay. Please don't blame me for the luxury taste of mine, i don't ask ur money to buy me one,see? m very independent. It's been long that have not rewards myself, tot of going to SPA with Firdaus, but guess with lots of stuff that's coming up, let's just plan once i've settle every-single-thing.

Birthday is coming up.see how la if u deserve the celebration :p

I just wish to share, i know that most of u out there is having this pre-monopaus syndrome aka stress, I learnt not to put the stress on my shoulder, let's just sit on them or maybe put them under ur feet, cos if we were defeated by the MR.Stress, then no way we are to be a better person. I guess the older we are, the wiser the calmer we become.

There's a lot of things i need to learn, to prepare the shield when the time comes, i will be the defender, i will be the King.

To not be greedy,to play safe -- be it in business or friendship or relationship cos u'll never know what's gonna smack u right on ur fucking face.

The world is just so small,for small people like who can easily cought by hunter like me. sometimes i'd rather say i dont have to hunt, the deer will surrender herself. good for bbq. but then i won't eat u, i rather chop ur meat and sell them at the market. brilliant.

anyways..

I must start my class soon.

Open ur mind and ur heart, u'll see new vision of life. new journey perhaps.insya allah.

2010-11-09T23:18:00.004+08:00

I was once been told,
"remember this, when u're pennyless no one will look up on u, even ur love one"

2010-11-09T04:26:00.002+08:00

I have so many eff things to jot down here, seriously! like what a small world,bump into u on the cyberspace? wtf? well, m glad u're doing fine, but then nothing changed,yet, still being dirty? all the best.
on the other hand,
This is challenging, my 1st baby, i have to take care of u, checked on u in DETAILS, I hope i can make this thru. Insya-Allah.
and yes
I hope u enjoy travel around the world. we"ll catch up soon.
Biz is getting dirty but should we get even dirtier? try me.

2010-11-05T06:44:00.001+08:00

To survive you must evolve, improve, have faith and still thrill.

2010-11-04T05:14:00.001+08:00

check him out on "tonight" feat ludacris

"cos tonite m fxckin ya"

techno beat, but m lovin it

reminds me those wild era of spellboundlady

2010-10-30T11:56:00.002+08:00

I wonder...about lots of things..dear Allah almighty...pls granted me more strength to go thru this.

2010-10-28T18:55:00.001+08:00

m lovin it!
ps, pic taken from the sartorialist!

2010-10-28T18:53:00.000+08:00

spot the sandals? m lovin it!

ps,pic taken from the sartorialist!

2010-10-28T18:06:00.002+08:00

I wanna cut my hair,like short,VERY short..

2010-10-28T17:10:00.000+08:00

life is a marketing, u always need to know ur competitors,strategies and with whom u deal with!

2010-10-28T13:06:00.002+08:00

It hurts,a lot, i feel i don't belong here.
Just attended an oversea phone interview.
Time will tell.

2010-10-22T18:00:00.002+08:00

I remembered, when i first started this blog, i wasn't refering to any dictionary,just to looked up what the hell was spellbound means, cos i had it in mind way before the earth created, how exaggerate! i know but yeah..i had it in mind way before it started, plus the LADY cos i m lady, i just like it the way i used to say...like bound on ya..spell on ya..like u know when u flirted around, u gotta have some pick up line..haha..yes..my point is...i dont need dictionary just to looked up for words, i dont even read them.

I have so many things i mind, that i need to sort them one by one. The solution is there already, it's just that..i'm the one been holding on for no reason.

The hardest things in life to know which road to cross.

have a nice weekeend!

2010-10-06T00:35:00.000+08:00

My gum is still aching..same goes to my heart like is a non-stop pressure,I shall bear this ache. :) I guess to be loved is part of to be hurt,but is it precisely like this? Ah!bff always said we are stronger than whatever shit we think we are!
I dreamt of u last nite, I dream of cuddled each other, +take a deep breath+
Well! I had a blast from asha..I was wrong..I admitted that,I just need more motivation,that's all.I will bounce back. Insya Allah.
Oh yeah..can't wait for team outing tomorrow!!
Till then goodnite
Xoxo
Spellbound from bb

2010-10-04T18:43:00.001+08:00

My gum is swollen,it really ached, but my heart is even aching..no words can describe, bff is leaving to s'pore tomorrow,m gonna miss him a lot!
I dunno what's in the store for me,but I guess I've made my decision.
Watched eat pray love -- this movie is awesome! I literally cried while watching it,specially the part where peter cried in the lift n when liz cried when david tld her that they each other so much till they hurt each so much,the scene was on the bed if m not mistaken, this movie says my heart out loud,very loud..but above all, the movie was superb!fantastic!
M moved!m touched!
Should grab the book!
Xoxo
Spellbound from bb

2010-09-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

I believed u can't appreciate real love till u've been burn ~ affirmation, savage garden

2010-09-26T16:43:00.001+08:00

love is to earn

2010-09-09T20:02:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya!

2010-09-05T04:23:00.002+08:00

I just came back from Danau Kota with bff,jemir and roy, seriously..i felt so lonely..cos i used to walk with u..then i saw a t-shirt,printed t-shirt, and it's smurf and knowing how much u liked those cartoon characters t-shirt,I wanted to buy for u,but u are no longer around

2010-09-03T06:24:00.002+08:00

which one? i choose gucci! it's such a long wait..

dr.jihan: hello darl..how r u..

me: m a total messed,but that's not important

dr jihan: i just came back from UK, and i brought ur loafer..

me: omg ..like u still remember?

dr jihan: yups!

me: see u then

dr jihan: weekend?

me: sure.

It's jihan! I cant help myself but to smile. at least in time like this..i have freinds whom think about me...friends to be their all ears for me, give me a hug when i needed the most, they know deep down inside who i wanted the most, but that person is no longer here with me.

m swamp..it's taking the whole energy out of me..

never i regret of knowing u..after all this that happened u still mean a lot to me..

I want to let this gone be by gone, i'll try not to take so much time. m fine people, will certainly be fine.

SpellBoundLady is back, but better version but will not give up her bitchyness. :p

2010-09-03T04:33:00.005+08:00

songs that sings my heart out..out n loud..

bleeding in love - Leona Lewis

better in time - Leona Lewis

cinta jangan kau pergi - Shiela Majid

I want u - Madonna

2010-09-01T09:28:00.003+08:00

The day has come...

Thank you so much for loving me,knowing u is most wonderful thing that could ever happened in my life for at least now.I 'm sorry that i failed to make u happy,but i've tried my best to be with u thru ur ups n downs,never failed to be with u when u needed me to be around,cos when i do all that..that's becos i love u so much...but apparently
we let that little dispute to injure our relationship.
I hope u find your happiness.

2010-09-01T04:05:00.000+08:00

No words can describe how i feel now..

this too shall past..

insya-Allah.

2010-08-18T00:54:00.002+08:00

esok!
got iftar gathering with the peeps at desa pandan.
will be going to PARAM for the juadah
after iftar, will go for coffee with the peeps
and then go to danau kota downtown.
Insya-Allah.
i wanna watch THE EXPANDABLE...

2010-08-17T13:09:00.005+08:00

bday part 2, thank u ever so much...

2010-08-17T13:01:00.003+08:00

from my mama,thanks ma..luv u.

2010-08-13T01:20:00.003+08:00

Thanks so much for the suprise! more than words to show how i feel. oh yeah..she is the che' puteh that i mentioned on previous entry! she is so fantabulous,brilliant and magnificient! The piece of cake from TONY ROMAS was indeed awesome! Thank you..Thank you..

ps, i cant wait to download loads and loads of apps into che puteh!

Anyways...Happy Bday to Me!

2010-08-10T21:40:00.003+08:00

i'm touched
i'm so moved
no better words to describe how i feel
but most of all
thank u
thank u so much
i'm grateful
i'm thankful

ps,welcome to my world dear Che' Puteh.

2010-08-07T06:06:00.001+08:00

Words of the day,

"Don't let a little dispute,injure a great relationship"

"Open your arms to change,but don't give up the rules"

"Once a year go some place you've never been before"

"In disagreement,deal with the current,don't bring up the past"

Have A Pleasant Weekend :)

2010-08-06T03:35:00.004+08:00

So where's our next destination?

2010-08-06T02:55:00.008+08:00

Went to Penang last weekend with the peeps after 2 years!.I must say Penang is my fav state! we stayed at Bayu Emas apartment for 3 days 2 nites,which is not a distance from Hard Rock Hotel,which overall is an ok apartment, good choice if u travelled in group. Spend most of the time hunting for food. we ate and we ate.

The 1st day we arrived, we start our late lunch at Nasi Kandar Kayu, and then bz searching for hotels,wander around the beach area while bff n jemir go for man hunting,taking photoes and etc.In the evening,we went to hard rock,shop till drop,cam whore and etc, so during the nite we lepak at feringi beach,saw ali guest house,remind me of last 2 years i went here with another peeps of mine.Had a blast during that time.

The 2nd day, we went to somewhere i dunno,i forgot, for cendol and laksa,suprisingly i managed to finished both knowing that i "tak akan habis makan" m SO DAMN PROUD OF MY SELF! :P , the peeps bought jeruk, which m not so fancy of. We did a tour to USM, took lots of pics, ate pasembor,kuey tiow at gurney and late dinner at Nasi Beratoq near the Masjid kapitan Kling, like OMG the curry was so damn good! thanks to Imran!

The 3rd day, went to hard rock shop AGAIN for the last minute shopping! and had Nasi Beriyani at restoran kapitan near the queensbay, again the nasi briyani was an orgasmic!

Well..Penang is Malaysian's food heaven The place to enjoy good food that is also cheap too. You cannot help but notice that in every corner of Penang, there is a coffeeshop or hawker stall of some kind. Penang is all about food!!!

Anyways, it was a worth last minute trip!

Here's some pic for eye soaring.

2010-07-31T04:00:00.001+08:00

“Sesungguhnya telah datang kepada kamu bulan yang diberkati, maka Allah SWT memfardhukan ke atas kamu berpuasa pada bulan tersebut, bulan yang dibuka pintu-pintu syurga dan ditutup semua pintu neraka, syaitan-syaitan dibelenggu. Serta di dalamnya terdapat satu malam yang lebih baik daripada seribu bulan. Barangsiapa yang terhalang daripada kebaikan malam itu maka terhalanglah ia daripada segala kebaikan.”

2010-07-30T05:54:00.000+08:00

I want!I want!

2010-07-30T04:36:00.001+08:00

S T R E S S !!

2010-07-29T03:45:00.002+08:00

Oh..it's Peace Laguna Resort & Spa, Krabi , Thailand damn beautiful!isnt she? next trip maybe,insya-Allah. So i have to be extra rajin to do ot for this reward!

2010-07-27T03:51:00.002+08:00

OK!

I was a nite shifter before and never encountered any SPOOKY momento. But now it seemed there's lot of spooky stories in the office

1) someone was sleeping on the table and was being pressed from the back,like REALLY hard.

2) toilte tissues rolling but there wasnt anyone one in the toilet except you

3) creepy sound like someone is typing

what else?

mind sharing?

2010-07-27T01:06:00.004+08:00

Back to the nite shift,i guess, i'd prefer the quite environment this time,i seriously can't beared the noisy,the cheerpy and etc.
What did i do today?
Since my shift started at 10pm, and i woke up quite early at 9.30am today,tried to sms MOH but ran out of phone credit,so decided to do laundry,finito laundry,took shower,went to ampang point,need to do threading.
Bought MOH perfume, i hope u like it, i bought the same brand cos i dont know whether are u gonna like the perfume of my own preference or not.

PAUSED

I miss u so much,at this moment i feel like
running to you for just a hug.I miss the time when we used to laugh
together,shared things together,non-stop smsing,and so caring towards each
other. We used to looked up for each other, but now it feels like we're apart.
I was wondering..
dont u love me anymore?
i need to know..

I have fever.out of sudden.m off to clinic now.

2010-07-27T01:05:00.000+08:00

The uncertainty of love and relationships.

2010-07-09T18:54:00.000+08:00

when can we watch the movie?

2010-07-08T01:14:00.002+08:00

It's 1.14pm.
Hectic day at work today,plus dealing with some stupid bunch of youngsters think that they can easily fooled MOH,which m not gonna allowed that to happened. Same ol shit, something that i really need to re-think for any decision making near future.
Good news at works,those who performed in July will be awarded with an Ipod Nano,good deal.
I've been thinking a lot these days,a lot and the best song that can describe my feeling is HOLD ON from Wilson Phillips. Feel like looking for a new environment.
M so sleepy.
xoxo
sleep tight.

2010-07-04T02:32:00.003+08:00

Missed adik :(
Just came back from visiting BFF. Alhamdullilah he's doing fine tho his blood platelet is still at 50 but it's increasing,perhaps it's a good sign.
I'm listening to Anuar Zain's track, I'm the lucky one and Tinggal kan aku.

"pergi sudah tinggalkan aku
ku tak ingin engkau ada kembali lagi ke dalam cerita hidup ku ini
ku bahagia tanpa diri
biar begini adanya
kerna tanpa mu
ku temukan sinarnya"

Met Mizi,after quite long time since last year, he put on weight and with new hair style

.